Well – I still have a cold so that might be skewing me as not feeling well but in terms of disconnecting, I think I feel more present and focused.
This morning I made it to my friend Ally’s house in Long Beach just using some basic emailed directions. Usually, I get lost using my phone. I just opened up my laptop to see what she’d written and made turns accordingly.
1) My mother is screening my Google Voice calls because it’s an Escondido zip code. I don’t think it’s because she figured out it might be me.
2) I have no live connection with anyone online. Google chat people logoff.
3. Email isn’t a great way to connect with people at night in hopes of quick responses.
My IPhone fell out a Tuktuk in Bangkok 15 days ago. I’ve been in Los Angeles for about five days now sans phone. It doesn’t seem to be a problem. I did miss a doctors appt yesterday but calling wouldn’t have helped. There was a terrible accident on the ten going East. Anyway, I haven’t put much effort into replacing my phone because I really don’t want a smart phone. I want a flip phone.
With a flip phone, I can be reached by text or phone but I can’t check my email, facebook or instagram. And if my real life were as boring as my social network life, I’d snuf this candle out myself. My online avatar personality may look happier and shinier than my real self, but it’s a boring life I lead online. I tell myself I’m there for interesting posts from interesting people but those are a tiny percentage of the trash spewing out of my newsfeed. I’m there mostly for schaudenfraude and maybe for some very childish stalking of men who do not pursue me. Not good.
So, a few hours ago I quit facebook. I instantly had a little burst of gratification. Maybe it’s like what someone who kills themselves to spite the people who ignored them. There was a part of me that thought, “That guy is going to wonder why I quit Facebook.” Who cares? Sadly, I do.
Tomorrow I think I will pick up a prepaid phone. Right now I am actually home very sick but in terms of being unplugged, as I blog and call my sister using Google Voice, I feel pretty good.